hercules
11-13-2007, 12:02 PM
:) Let's see. Do I have panic/anxiety disorder? Well it took me 30 minutes of staring at this web site before taking action and now I am in the middle of an actual panci attack so I guess the answer is YES! This disorder is so hard to live with. I know that calling this insanity is probably inappropriate but it is the only way I am able to look at it. The human body was not set up to operate under this kind of stress. I've been living with my many demons my ENTIRE life.
As a child I would faint under stress and if I had to do anything infront of a group of people, like an oral book report, I would vomit violently all night before. These actions are not normal.
The unfortunate part of my story is that when I was a child (I'm 60) no one thought about the possiblity that a child could actually have a mental illness of this type .
I also suffer from complete loss of memory. I have lost my entire childhood and early adulthood. I have basically lost my life. I remember nothing. Birth of my child, high school, my sister, my wedding----these are fairly important events in a persons life and to have lost all memory of them is truly devastating and has been a source of stress for many, years years.
After years of therapy I have finaaly gotten to the point of accepting this but it still upsets me. When people start talking about childhood memories I feel so left out and anonomous. It actually hurts me---real physical pain! Anyway, this is a brief look into my life which is spent inside my home with no contact with the outside world except for a few safe zones I have managed to acquire in order to buy food and gas.
But I guess I have rambled on way to long so anyway Hi my name is Hercules and I am an agoraphobic
As a child I would faint under stress and if I had to do anything infront of a group of people, like an oral book report, I would vomit violently all night before. These actions are not normal.
The unfortunate part of my story is that when I was a child (I'm 60) no one thought about the possiblity that a child could actually have a mental illness of this type .
I also suffer from complete loss of memory. I have lost my entire childhood and early adulthood. I have basically lost my life. I remember nothing. Birth of my child, high school, my sister, my wedding----these are fairly important events in a persons life and to have lost all memory of them is truly devastating and has been a source of stress for many, years years.
After years of therapy I have finaaly gotten to the point of accepting this but it still upsets me. When people start talking about childhood memories I feel so left out and anonomous. It actually hurts me---real physical pain! Anyway, this is a brief look into my life which is spent inside my home with no contact with the outside world except for a few safe zones I have managed to acquire in order to buy food and gas.
But I guess I have rambled on way to long so anyway Hi my name is Hercules and I am an agoraphobic